HOW TO GAIN TRUST BACK IN A RELATIONSHIP AFTER LYING-I Did It

SHARING IS CARING

It wasn’t easy to rebuild trust in my relationships because the problem started pretty early.  Actually, it was sixth grade.  I found a big grocery bag in a locker at school in the PE room.  I knew what it was and I was curious.  So, I emptied out my mom’s cigarettes and put the marijuana in it.

But I didn’t get high, so I decided to sell it for $20.00.  The person who bought it was my friend’s brother and after he bought it, he showed me how to roll it.  This time, I did get high.

After that, “high” was a constant state.

Then my parents found out.  Boy, were they disappointed in me.  I had let them down and had not honored their trust in me to make good decisions.  My Dad kicked my butt and confronted my friend who had given it to me.  Mom was in the house crying.

My Personal Core Values Disappeared

But smoking pot was the entrance into “The Crowd.”  By 16, I was doing cocaine.  And by 25, I was doing crack cocaine.  I got addicted on the first try.  It was overwhelming.  This went on until I was 35.

At 20, I started embezzling.  I started at a store where I was good friends with the manager.  She trusted me, but I let her down.  I felt so bad because she was a friend.  But I was letting people down all the time.

I shoplifted every day to keep my habit going.  I knew exactly what items to shoplift that I could sell for drugs.

One problem with being so dishonest and untrustworthy all the time was the accumulated criminal charges.  I had 40 or more charges pending and plenty of warrants out for my arrest

How I Finally Got Unstuck

I had gone through 7 or 8 rehab programs before Victory Outreach, where I finally got clean.

Detox took 3 weeks.  “It was the worse 3 weeks of my life.”  Needless to say, “clean” was not an easy road either.  It wasn’t easy finding a job with nothing but dishonesty, lies, and betrayal in my past.

Alpine Creek Market was a grocery store who gave me a chance.  The store knew my background when they hired me.  I was very open and upfront with them.  I was hired as the night janitor, but it wasn’t enough hours.

I was working just twice a week.  Eventually, I asked the store manager if I could get some extra hours so I also worked Load Crew–stocking shelves at night to get extra hours.

De-Hydrated Water and Shaken Salad Dressing

Even though that was true, I can’t say I wasn’t above a few practical jokes.  The first week of New Hires was often subjected to a few initiation rites.

I would tell them to go stock the dehydrated water.  The new recruit would then go ask the manager where the dehydrated water was.

I would say, “We want the salad dressing to look presentable to the customer.  Go shake the salad dressings on Aisle 7.”  The new recruit would be in the aisle shaking salad dressing with both hands, while another person and I would be falling over laughing in the freezer.

I Had Earned Self-Confidence

After two years, they told me they considered me the best Receiver they had ever had.   The store owner even came in to say it to me directly.  I got three awards for “Employee of the Month,” $100.00 for each one, a Playstation, a camera, and a 100.00 lunch.  After another two years, they made me front-end manger and shift manager where I was over money and lottery tickets.

I’ve been clean now for ten years.  Now my Dad says, “Michael, log into my bank account and tell me how much I have.”  He never did that when I was using.  Now he gives me the keys to his shop–which has thousands of dollars of equipment.  He never did that when I was using.

Trust Yourself and Others Can Trust You

Now I trust myself.  My brothers trust me.  They leave their wallets and money out.  They let me take their kids.  And now my Mom trusts me with anything.

After I had been clean for two years, Mom saw that I was punctual with the rent for the apartment I was renting from her, that I had a consistent job, and that I was never sick or late.

Slowly, day-by-day, I earned her respect and trust.

Trust means being reliable, consistent, and honest.  The definition of trust includes “believing in the strength of someone or something.”  I finally earned that.

How to Get Motivated:  Cherish Trust

Without a doubt, trust was my greatest motivator.  That grocery store job was the first time I had ever been trusted and that was the greatest gift anyone had ever given me.  You don’t realize how valuable trust is until you don’t have it. 

There is no greater gift than to ultimately be worthy of trust and have someone extend it to you.

SHARING IS CARING